Monday, August 19, 2013

Well...  I can try to pretend like everything is fine and dandy, but we're having neighbor issues again and it's getting me down.  In fact, Curt called me a while back today so I could calm down before he got home.  These stupid neighbors have been a thorn in my flesh since we moved in.  We had an issue exactly a month ago today and quite frankly, I've ignored these people like the plague since then.  As Curt puts it, that house doesn't even exist.  Well...  it's been a month, all has been okay until our HOA opened her mouth about a complaint we had and she PROMISED to not say a word to them.  Long story short, she did. And now the neighbors want to sue me for slander for something the neighbor himself admitted to and my cousin who was a witness will confirm.  Anyways, I suppose I shouldn't worry but these people non stop accuse my children of going into their backyard.  EVEN WHEN THEY ARE AT THEIR DAD'S HOUSE!!!  Hmmmm... makes you wonder a little.  I'm done bitching about this.  For now.

The diet.  For me, it's going well..  I've lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks, Curt has lost 7 lbs in 2 weeks. 

August 5, 2013- ANDDDDDDD...... We're off!

UGH!!!!!!  I hate all this!!!  My weight is getting me down.  BADLY!  So yes, I wrote a few weeks ago that we started back up.  That was very short lived due to several very stressful situations and activities that made dieting nearly impossible.  So here we are again.  I'm at my highest weight ever- 188.2 lbs.  WTF???????  I would have NEVER dreamed I'd ever be this big.  NONE of my clothes fit.  So it's time because by golly, I am NOT buying new clothes to say that THIS is ok!  To make this worse, I'm so out of shape/ big that I can't even work out.  Frickin' stupid!  Me, my past behavior is what I'm referring to there.  It is just pisses me off that I've allowed this. 

July 17, 2013

Wow!!  It's been a long time since I've posted anything.  I guess it's time to fill in all the blanks.  I'm saddened by my foot injury from the first weekend of May.  I still have huge issues with it.  It is swollen every night and in the morning, holy cow...  I stumble out of bed and limp around for about an hour.  I can't begin to work out, but I did start this week because I have to!  I have to do something and I have this theory that getting more active will help that thing heal faster.

I had every intention to have my weight way down before my brother's wedding.  Of course, I didn't.  In fact, at some point I just didn't give a crap.  I was really stressed out about the whole thing.  Curt and I both had big responsibilities.  For me...  those dresses kicked my butt.  I made the mock dresses and tried them on 3 of the 4 bridesmaids.  I couldn't get the other bridesmaid over to try hers on.  So after doing the mock dresses, then I started on the real ones and realized that the fabric she chose SUCKED!!  Thank goodness my sister in law is the easiest going person I know.  I went to her, 3 days BEFORE the wedding and showed her the "real" dresses and asked if I could change the fabric up again and she said, whatever you want.  So I quickly ran down and bought a shimmery cotton and, what a sigh of relief, made the 4 dresses with ease!  I actually got alot of compliments from people. So for as much trouble as those things were, it was worth it, I guess.

First weekend of June...  Curt woke up on that Saturday morning in horrible pain.  We spent some time in the ER.  His hernia, that has caused problems for several months, popped out and wouldn't go back in.  Long story, short...  he was out of work from June 3 to July 14 and had surgery on June 18 to fix it.  After a few weeks, he's feeling much better.  Hopefully he can start working out again too!  I've been looking forward to racquetball again!

My son is causing stress in my life.  He snuck out again.  He got arrested.  He made me mad.  I don't want to talk about it.  Just know it's there.  By the way, he's been on his best behavior.

We started back up on the diet on July 3.  We've been eating pretty carefully and all that.  I'm up and up and up and up and at my highest weight ever.  I don't get it.  I'm being very careful.  Quite frankly, I'm very discouraged.  I'm going to start posting more regularly to keep myself honest.  Maybe I'm missing something.  I will say that in my defense...  I have a horrible sun burn and at night, my legs are horribly swollen.  AND it should be TTOM in the next day or 2, but the latter has never really affected my weight all that much. I think that I'll try for an attack phase starting tomorrow (Curt already has his lunch packed and gone).  And I should mention here that Curt is also up a little so that is why I think I'm missing something.  We'll just get on top of this all and hopefully it will be better.  I'm tired of feeling like crap about myself. 

This morning's weight:
J: 186.0 lbs (up 1.4 lbs from yesterday, up 6 lbs since Saturday (!!!))

Breakfast:
C: eggs
J: none

Lunch:
C: shredded pork, almonds, 0 calorie jello, pepper jack cheese, yogurt
J: 2 boiled eggs, jalapeno sausage and a handful of almonds

Dinner:
C and J: prime rib, sauteed onions and mushrooms, broccoli

Water:
C:
J: 1 lt water, 1 lt 0 calorie Powerade, 2 lt 0 calorie lemonade

Excercise:
J: 62 minutes on stationary bike, weights

May 10, 2013

It's been awhile.  We fell off the band wagon...  again.  But we've been really good since Tuesday.  We went out of town last weekend.  Curt, Briyanna and I jet boated up the Salmon River for 3 days.  Our first night there...  I sprained my ankle pretty bad. I was going to put a picture of it on, but it won't load so I guess not.  So we were stuck up a river for 3 days, not knowing if it was broken or not, with only ibuprofen, whiskey, vodka and beer.  I did ALOT of drinking to just make thru the weekend.  And alot of sitting.  I actually did do a little work the last day but I regretted it by the time I got home.  Now..  the foot is a huge, black, useless stump.  I damaged every ligament in my foot.  Awesome....  That darn right foot.  I might just cut the darn thing off.  When we got home and back in the grove on Tuesday, we weighed in and OMG our weights were atrocious!  I weighed the heaviest I've weighed.  EVER.  Curt encouraged me tho.  His theory is that my foot is so swollen that I'm carrying extra weight.  I'm agreeing.  Because I makes me feel better.  Since Tuesday, I'm down 5.8 lbs (so is my swelling when I weigh in) and Curt was down 5 lbs, as of yesterday.  Starting next week, I'll start writing down our weights and what we eat.  Right now, we're just doing a 5 day attack.  I made some pretty amazing Mexican food dishes that I tweaked to make Dukanish.

Tomorrow we get to go to district trackmeets to go to state.  Ethan is currently ranked #2 in the state in the 800 (1/2 mile)  and #4 in the 400 (1/4 mile).  And he's not even going to run the 400 for districts.  Dumb!  Briyanna has PRed in the 800 a couple times this season and will probably get to state in the 1600 (the mile) for sure.  Should be a fun, HOT (90 degrees) day. 

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

This is going to be quick...  I'm down 5 lbs in 1 week! Woohoo! About freakin' time!  Curt's not moving much.  Weird, but I'm actually working out where he is not.  Maybe that's the difference?

It's a New Day!

I'm feeling a little more positive today.  I'm not sure what the change is, but I'm in a fantastic mood.  I went to the fabric store today to help sister in law pick out a pattern and fabric for bridesmaids dresses.  She wants sleeveless, so sleeveless they'll be.  I'm glad I know now.  That gives me 2 months (73 days to be exact) to tone up my arms, shoulders and upper back. And 73 days to try to get off between 15 and 20 lbs.  The one good thing about this pattern is that it is slightly high waisted so my stomach area doesn't have to be amazing.  So I'm working on a plan.  *I'm going to start putting on miles.  We have a "greenbelt" that starts about 1/3 mile from our house that runs for several miles.  Later this evening, I'm going to start walking it and see how long it is.  I'm walking for now til my foot is feeling better.  (speaking of...  I started wearing 2 socks on that foot and it feels 100% better.)  I'm only going to do this walk on the nights that Curt works.  *I'm going to start lifting weights more consistently.  I don't need to go to the gym for this.  I actually have weights here at the house, under my bed.  Time to dust those things off, I guess.  *I have P90X here, a couple pilates videos, Insanity, and a 30 day shred here I can do.  Maybe 3 of those a week.  *NO ALCOHOL.  PERIOD.  *Time to get super serious about the diet and STICK TO IT, darn it!  My biggest issue here is going to be the PP/ PV days.  I hate, hate PP days.  By the end of the night, I'm craving veggies so bad that I end up cheating. 

So there's my plan for the next 10 weeks.  We already kinda cheated this morning.  We were in a hurry to get out of the house this morning.  We split a ham, egg and cheese artisan breakfast sandwich at Starbucks.  At least we didn't get one each, right?  Lunch/ dinner are both going to be beef fajitas.  So today looks like a PV day.  And I need to start getting back into drinking more water. 

Morning weights weren't as bad as I thought they were going to be.  I'll start posting them tomorrow. 

In Need of a Reset

Well...  It's Wednesday.  That doesn't mean too much I guess.  I'm just feeling a little dumpy...  I've been feeling really down lately about alot of things and because of that, "dieting" has not been even remotely close to being something I'm worried about.  This morning my sister-in-law called me.  She and my brother were married in front of a judge last December and had a baby boy a few days later.  But they are planning a "wedding" for this June.  Because I sew, she's been really picking my brain for ideas.  I'm basically rebuilding her wedding dress, using pieces that we're cutting off the dress to make 2 flower girl dresses and all 4 bridesmaids dresses.  On the bright side, I'm one the brides maids so I'm a little excited about making sure that mine will fit me well!  So on that note...  now I have a goal to work for.  In a way I've had this mindset that I have nothing to work for so who gives a crap.  I'd rather eat and drink what I want than torture myself.  But I guess that I have a reason to lose weight now.  It doesn't mean I have a better attitude yet, but I'm working on it. 

A Foot Update::  It still is thoroughly killing me and Curt is getting tired of hearing me whine.  He keeps telling me we should go to the doctor but I won't.  But I think I figured out what actually happened.  I was sewing yesterday and talking to Curt about an external hard drive on the shelf under my machines, over my feet, when I remembered a few weeks ago that that damned thing fell off the shelf right onto my bare foot, corner first.  I'm positive that's what caused my issue.  And now I'm wondering if I really did do some damage to my foot and maybe I really should go in.  We've been working out somewhat lately but I get home and get that shoe off and my foot just inflates.  Today, we dropped the car off at the shop and walked about 2 miles.  By the time we got home, I had a blister on the ball of my foot.  Same foot.  Seriously...  just cut my leg off. 

Tonight while Curt is at work, I'm going to work on my taxes, cut out some fabric, work on a menu for the next week or so, sew, and clean my kitchen, girls' bedroom and upstairs bathroom.