JAMIE:
Yesterday's weight: 156.0 lbs
Today's weight: 154.4 lbs
TOTAL LOSS: 25.8 lbs
Loss this week: 7 lbs (in the past 4 days!!)
CURT:
TOTAL LOSS: 77.0 lbs (that's a new low!)
I hope that my number is not screwed up too bad tomorrow. I made my breakfast- oat bran porridge- and COULD NOT eat it. It seriously made me gag. And I did the same thing yesterday on the eggs we had for breakfast. I'm going to have to find something for breakfast that works for me. Maybe I should make more dinner and eat the leftovers for breakfast. I just don't know, but I'll figure something out. Anyhow, we were up and running this morning. We had to drop one kid off at summer school, pick up another (who was in a pissy mood this morning, I might add) from her friend's house so she could go to work for Curt's dad, and then pick up yet another kid from the church camp bus stop. All in an hour and all over this town. This morning I woke up at 7 (3 hours before my alarm was to go off) and was parched. I had a Diet Cherry Pepsi sitting next to the bed, so I guzzled most of it down. 10 minutes later, I was in the bathroom vomiting it back up. Maybe that's some of the reason the porridge just wouldn't go down? Who knows? So we rushed out and I was starving. I had to break down and get something, which ended up being a BLT Subway sandwich that I split with Curt. OMG... it was tasty. And it stayed down. We'll be good for the rest of the day. I have meatballs in marinara sauce planned for dinner tonight.
It's nice to see my number dropping finally. I was having a rough couple of weeks there. And Curt finally saw movement and a new low, and he's been very well behaved, except for an occasional handful of peanut (that I'm not going to buy any more of because of this!).
Ok, to work I go!
Friday, July 27, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
JAMIE:
7/20/12: 161.0 lbs
7/21/12: 158.6 lbs
7/22/12: 160.6 lbs
7/23/12: ?
7/24/12: 161.4 lbs
7/25/12: 159.6 lbs
7/26/12: 156.0 lbs
TOTAL LOSS TO DATE: 24.2 lbs
CURT:
TOTAL LOSS TO DATE: 76.8 lbs
I'm seeing progress. Finally! Nothing huge to talk about. I'm still irritated (see yesterday's post), but that's it.
I was going through all of our weight loss records. I realize that I must cheat ALOT! I know I do, but crap, I eat so much better than I did, that I can't believe I'm not losing more than I am. I really have just been consistently sitting around 157 lbs. On the other hand, it makes me wonder it I was easily on a path to gaining ALOT of weight and that I just nipped it in the bud? I sadly think that it was the latter. Curt is 4 lbs from another huge goal. He is behaving quite well, while I'm not really. So we're hoping that he hits this goal by the end of next week. It's fairly reasonable as long as we stick to what we've been doing the past week.
I will be honest, we have not been doing the PP/ PV rotation religiously. We've been following PV consistently. The reason: it's summer, we have TONS fresh veggies and I hate the idea of any of my veggies going bad just because it's not a PV day. So, until the fresh veggies are all gone, we'll probably be doing PV days.
7/20/12: 161.0 lbs
7/21/12: 158.6 lbs
7/22/12: 160.6 lbs
7/23/12: ?
7/24/12: 161.4 lbs
7/25/12: 159.6 lbs
7/26/12: 156.0 lbs
TOTAL LOSS TO DATE: 24.2 lbs
CURT:
TOTAL LOSS TO DATE: 76.8 lbs
I'm seeing progress. Finally! Nothing huge to talk about. I'm still irritated (see yesterday's post), but that's it.
I was going through all of our weight loss records. I realize that I must cheat ALOT! I know I do, but crap, I eat so much better than I did, that I can't believe I'm not losing more than I am. I really have just been consistently sitting around 157 lbs. On the other hand, it makes me wonder it I was easily on a path to gaining ALOT of weight and that I just nipped it in the bud? I sadly think that it was the latter. Curt is 4 lbs from another huge goal. He is behaving quite well, while I'm not really. So we're hoping that he hits this goal by the end of next week. It's fairly reasonable as long as we stick to what we've been doing the past week.
I will be honest, we have not been doing the PP/ PV rotation religiously. We've been following PV consistently. The reason: it's summer, we have TONS fresh veggies and I hate the idea of any of my veggies going bad just because it's not a PV day. So, until the fresh veggies are all gone, we'll probably be doing PV days.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
My vent...
I guess I was just waiting for an erupting point. Hey! Guess what?!?! Just got there. This has nothing to do with the diet. Just me getting a bunch of crap off my chest because I refuse to use Facebook like that. So... here goes. And I apologize. This will probably be long and all over the place.
I'm going to start with my ex-husband. I've been really struggling with this issue. At church on Sunday, the pastor addressed the issue of "love your neighbor." He also said that Jesus said to be at peace as much as possible with everyone. I'm paraphrasing there, obviously, but really... it's common sense. Anyhow... I've been really fighting with myself about, when it comes to my ex-husband, I need to get over stuff, forgive/ ask for forgiveness and all that jazz. I was right there on Sunday afternoon. I promise. I prayed about it and everything. And then... my kids came home on Monday. That is when I heard all about his new wife and some of the crap she's been pulling. They've been married barely a month. I've never met her, seen her once (and I will have to say, selfishly... she has a huge ass). Well... she is 45 (my ex is 38) and has 2 kids. One of those kids is a drug addict, had a little girl that she didn't take care, so the new wife has adopted her grand daughter (3 years old). She moves in, takes over the frickin' place, not too surprising really. Well, apparently, Berlyn, my youngest (8 years old), gets blamed for everything that this 3 year old does. Briyanna told me Berlyn cries all the time over there because she is always in trouble. THAT IS FRUSTRATING. ALOT! Then new wife says to Briyanna, "Well... I don't have anything against your mom, but.. " Briyanna said at that point she said a bunch of crap. I told her to tell new wife that she doesn't know me and to quit repeating crap to her that her butt-hurt husband fed her. I'm not sure what else to say to her/ them. I don't want to cause a fight. But shit.... I sure don't want to sit here and take it either. Here is my huge problem with this whole thing. I KNOW that I ended my marriage, that I chose to do things wrong. But I also know that he was at fault too. I'm not going to go into all of that. It's neither here nor there. Just know that he was not the perfect husband that he tries to tell people that he was. Anyhow, this all made me pretty mad, but I was still ready to try to make peace. Maybe. So... today... Ethan did some work for Curt's dad and got paid by a check. Last time he did this, we went to cash the check and it was an issue so we opened a checking account for him. I kept looking for his new debit card in he mail and never got, altho I got my guardian debit card several weeks ago. So we go in and try to cash or deposit the check he got this morning. Seriously.. 30 minutes of fighting with them. I had my card and they couldn't get his account to work. Come to find out, his debit card was mailed to his dad's house, despite me going to the bank at least half a dozen times in the past 6 months asking to change the addresses on ALL accounts. Then, found out the ex called the bank, pretended he was Ethan, gave them Ethan's social security number and birthday, and told them he wanted to shut down his checking account. And he also canceled Brenna's cash card that came to his house. I really can't begin to tell you how angry I am right now. I'm almost to that point of wanting to call in and cancel one of his accounts. But I won't go that low. Crap, I'm livid. I can't even put into words how mad I am.
Next subject, my brother... This isn't going to be a huge vent. At least I don't think so! My brother, divorced in June, is dating a much younger woman. He is 42, she is 26. But.. I love the new girlfriend! I've known my brother's exwife since I was in 4th grade, so... 26 years! His ex-wife is being a bitch, his youngest son is being an ass. I'm so tired of all these people. So... new girlfriend.. she's pregnant. 4 months pregnant! I'm really okay with all of this. My parents, on the other hand, are not! I hear everything from my dad and then my mom won't say a single word. But I know she is stewing. So I just pretend nothing is wrong and all but throw the new girlfriend in my mom's face. She's pregnant, needs our support. Honestly, I'm over all of this. Wish my mom was.
Last subject... Curt's family. UGH!!! I'll try to make this quick. His sister had a birthday party for her daughter, his niece. His sister invited his son (while he was at our house) and his ex-wife. Ummmm.... is it just me or was this a little screwed up? It's like my ex's brother inviting me and the kids to a birthday party instead of him and the kids. Once it was addressed, they all (sister and Curt's mom) said that they couldn't uninvite Curt's ex-wife. They did this last year too. Okay... it makes total sense to not piss off the ex-wife versus the new wife and brother??? OMG... it still makes my blood boil! And then, they invite us to a birthday party this weekend. I totally don't want to go. I feel like a damn after thought at this point. Invite the fucking ex-wife, for all I care... They do a damn good job of making me feel like I'm Curt's baggage. Thank goodness he doesn't look at me that way! I sadly want to cancel at the very last minute. I won't. But I want to.
And then there's his ex-wife... she... is... priceless! We're trying to sell the old house, but she has to sign papers. Surprise, surprise... she won't! And oh... there's more, but she's not worth wasting my breath on. She and my ex should find themselves on a ship and sail away!
If I used Facebook as a soap box, my status would be:
I HATE EVERYONE!
I'm going to start with my ex-husband. I've been really struggling with this issue. At church on Sunday, the pastor addressed the issue of "love your neighbor." He also said that Jesus said to be at peace as much as possible with everyone. I'm paraphrasing there, obviously, but really... it's common sense. Anyhow... I've been really fighting with myself about, when it comes to my ex-husband, I need to get over stuff, forgive/ ask for forgiveness and all that jazz. I was right there on Sunday afternoon. I promise. I prayed about it and everything. And then... my kids came home on Monday. That is when I heard all about his new wife and some of the crap she's been pulling. They've been married barely a month. I've never met her, seen her once (and I will have to say, selfishly... she has a huge ass). Well... she is 45 (my ex is 38) and has 2 kids. One of those kids is a drug addict, had a little girl that she didn't take care, so the new wife has adopted her grand daughter (3 years old). She moves in, takes over the frickin' place, not too surprising really. Well, apparently, Berlyn, my youngest (8 years old), gets blamed for everything that this 3 year old does. Briyanna told me Berlyn cries all the time over there because she is always in trouble. THAT IS FRUSTRATING. ALOT! Then new wife says to Briyanna, "Well... I don't have anything against your mom, but.. " Briyanna said at that point she said a bunch of crap. I told her to tell new wife that she doesn't know me and to quit repeating crap to her that her butt-hurt husband fed her. I'm not sure what else to say to her/ them. I don't want to cause a fight. But shit.... I sure don't want to sit here and take it either. Here is my huge problem with this whole thing. I KNOW that I ended my marriage, that I chose to do things wrong. But I also know that he was at fault too. I'm not going to go into all of that. It's neither here nor there. Just know that he was not the perfect husband that he tries to tell people that he was. Anyhow, this all made me pretty mad, but I was still ready to try to make peace. Maybe. So... today... Ethan did some work for Curt's dad and got paid by a check. Last time he did this, we went to cash the check and it was an issue so we opened a checking account for him. I kept looking for his new debit card in he mail and never got, altho I got my guardian debit card several weeks ago. So we go in and try to cash or deposit the check he got this morning. Seriously.. 30 minutes of fighting with them. I had my card and they couldn't get his account to work. Come to find out, his debit card was mailed to his dad's house, despite me going to the bank at least half a dozen times in the past 6 months asking to change the addresses on ALL accounts. Then, found out the ex called the bank, pretended he was Ethan, gave them Ethan's social security number and birthday, and told them he wanted to shut down his checking account. And he also canceled Brenna's cash card that came to his house. I really can't begin to tell you how angry I am right now. I'm almost to that point of wanting to call in and cancel one of his accounts. But I won't go that low. Crap, I'm livid. I can't even put into words how mad I am.
Next subject, my brother... This isn't going to be a huge vent. At least I don't think so! My brother, divorced in June, is dating a much younger woman. He is 42, she is 26. But.. I love the new girlfriend! I've known my brother's exwife since I was in 4th grade, so... 26 years! His ex-wife is being a bitch, his youngest son is being an ass. I'm so tired of all these people. So... new girlfriend.. she's pregnant. 4 months pregnant! I'm really okay with all of this. My parents, on the other hand, are not! I hear everything from my dad and then my mom won't say a single word. But I know she is stewing. So I just pretend nothing is wrong and all but throw the new girlfriend in my mom's face. She's pregnant, needs our support. Honestly, I'm over all of this. Wish my mom was.
Last subject... Curt's family. UGH!!! I'll try to make this quick. His sister had a birthday party for her daughter, his niece. His sister invited his son (while he was at our house) and his ex-wife. Ummmm.... is it just me or was this a little screwed up? It's like my ex's brother inviting me and the kids to a birthday party instead of him and the kids. Once it was addressed, they all (sister and Curt's mom) said that they couldn't uninvite Curt's ex-wife. They did this last year too. Okay... it makes total sense to not piss off the ex-wife versus the new wife and brother??? OMG... it still makes my blood boil! And then, they invite us to a birthday party this weekend. I totally don't want to go. I feel like a damn after thought at this point. Invite the fucking ex-wife, for all I care... They do a damn good job of making me feel like I'm Curt's baggage. Thank goodness he doesn't look at me that way! I sadly want to cancel at the very last minute. I won't. But I want to.
And then there's his ex-wife... she... is... priceless! We're trying to sell the old house, but she has to sign papers. Surprise, surprise... she won't! And oh... there's more, but she's not worth wasting my breath on. She and my ex should find themselves on a ship and sail away!
If I used Facebook as a soap box, my status would be:
I HATE EVERYONE!
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Just a quick note to say we're alive! And that I made an amazing, easy lunch!
Chicken Salad Lettuce Wraps:
2 cans of canned chicken
1/4 c. FF sour cream
5 green onions, chopped very fine
2 stalks of celery, chopped very fine
1 T. Montreal chicken seasoning
So good!
Friday, July 20, 2012
July 20, 2012
Today's weight: 161.0 lbs
Yesterday's weight: 161.8 lbs
Lowest weight (6/24/12): 152.6 lbs
Highest weight on diet (8/22/11): 180.2 lbs
2 days no beer
CURT:
Total loss to date: 76 lbs
Well.... I guess at least the weight it down. I hate seeing the 160's. It has been MONTHS since I was that high, and now I'm there and can't seem to get out of it. But this shows me that I can't go back to the way that I was eating because I will be right back to where I was. Frustrating considering that I used to eat EVERYTHING whenever I wanted and didn't weigh a pound over 105 lbs. I know... I've had this conversation over and over in my mind again. 105 lbs isn't a healthy weight, and that is no where near the weight I'm aiming for. I'm just reminiscing about my skinny days. Sigh... I digress.
Today we woke up about 9:30 a.m. My dad invited Curt and I to a free steak lunch that started at 11 a.m. at a place where he buys weed sprayers (he is a licensed weed technician... yes... for reals). Pass up a free meal? Hell no! Plus they had door prizes. I won a collapsible cooler, and Curt won a hat full of little trinkets. So... we might have misbehaved just a little bit. We had the steak, no potato chips, no dinner rolls and butter, but we had a small spoonful (well.. mine was) of potato salad and a small scoop of homemade chili (that was TO DIE FOR, by the way!). There was also grilled onions. We both got a scoop of that, but I didn't eat mine because the butter was literally soaking through my plate from them. Curt, on the other hand, was naughty. And we got a little exercise chasing around my new nieces. They are a handful, but adorable. That whole thing is another story any itself and one of these days, I'm going to have to write that out just to get a bunch of stuff off my chest.
Dinner was FANTASTIC! We've got lots of zucchini and I've been loving using them. I love summer and fresh veggies!
Dinner:
BBQ hamburgers wrapped in lettuce with toppings
green salad
grilled zucchini slices
I used pam instead of olive oil
Evening snack:
handful of peanuts (been craving those since the Virginia trip)
Exercise:
J: chest and back P90X
Yesterday's weight: 161.8 lbs
Lowest weight (6/24/12): 152.6 lbs
Highest weight on diet (8/22/11): 180.2 lbs
2 days no beer
CURT:
Total loss to date: 76 lbs
Well.... I guess at least the weight it down. I hate seeing the 160's. It has been MONTHS since I was that high, and now I'm there and can't seem to get out of it. But this shows me that I can't go back to the way that I was eating because I will be right back to where I was. Frustrating considering that I used to eat EVERYTHING whenever I wanted and didn't weigh a pound over 105 lbs. I know... I've had this conversation over and over in my mind again. 105 lbs isn't a healthy weight, and that is no where near the weight I'm aiming for. I'm just reminiscing about my skinny days. Sigh... I digress.
Today we woke up about 9:30 a.m. My dad invited Curt and I to a free steak lunch that started at 11 a.m. at a place where he buys weed sprayers (he is a licensed weed technician... yes... for reals). Pass up a free meal? Hell no! Plus they had door prizes. I won a collapsible cooler, and Curt won a hat full of little trinkets. So... we might have misbehaved just a little bit. We had the steak, no potato chips, no dinner rolls and butter, but we had a small spoonful (well.. mine was) of potato salad and a small scoop of homemade chili (that was TO DIE FOR, by the way!). There was also grilled onions. We both got a scoop of that, but I didn't eat mine because the butter was literally soaking through my plate from them. Curt, on the other hand, was naughty. And we got a little exercise chasing around my new nieces. They are a handful, but adorable. That whole thing is another story any itself and one of these days, I'm going to have to write that out just to get a bunch of stuff off my chest.
Dinner was FANTASTIC! We've got lots of zucchini and I've been loving using them. I love summer and fresh veggies!
Dinner:
BBQ hamburgers wrapped in lettuce with toppings
green salad
grilled zucchini slices
I used pam instead of olive oil
Evening snack:
handful of peanuts (been craving those since the Virginia trip)
Exercise:
J: chest and back P90X
Thursday, July 19, 2012
July 19, 2012
Well... I haven't posted in a long time. I'm pretty down right disgusted with myself right now. Curt is actually doing quite well. He is almost down to his pre vacation weight. Me.... I'm a full 10 lbs above my pre vacation weight. Ugh.... We eat the same damn thing!! I'm not irritated with him. Just annoyed with myself. So....i guess I'm just going to have to get down to business. I haven't ate well, but not awful. I'm not exercising at all, but I'm have a couple physical issues. Of course.... Those physical issues are really not enough to totally keep me from working out, but its been an excuse that I've been riding for awhile. And then, I've been drinking too much. I'm using the, "my back hurts from working" excuse. Not that I'm exaggerating. My back really is on fire, but I need to find a different, healthy way to make me feel better. I think I'm gonna start keeping a count of days without a drink. Makes me more accountable. So here is what we ate today:
Late breakfast/ early lunch-
Steak and asparagus
Dinner-
Meatloaf and fried (in Pam) zucchini and onions
We need to drink more water. We're not drinking calories, just enjoying the Diet Pepsi a little too much. And tea. And crystal light.
We slept in today, thus no breakfast. Curt has started a new shift at work. He now works 5:00 pm to 1:30 am... While I actually like the schedule because it gives alot of together time before he works, it has thrown off our sleeping and eating habits. Its going to be awful when school starts back up!
Oh!! Other news.... My Pug had her puppies on Tuesday night/ Wednesday morning! 10 days early! And 5 males. They're stinkin' cute!
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